Reflections and Life Changes

I haven't had a ton to write about this week thus the lack of blogs, but I have been thinking a lot this week about life, changes, and friendships. please bare with me as I run at the mouth for a bit. I actually feel like Carrie Bradshaw from Sex and the City right about now as I sit at my computer and think!! All three of which are tough topics. I just keep thinking about all the wonderful people in my life, all of those who have been by my side in the past year. What a wonderful year it has been for me. With the joy of the birth of Seth came many highs and lows. I can not imagine my life without him now or even what life was like when he wasn't alive. Many of you might or might not know that I had a tough adjustment process to motherhood. One that I am not exactly proud of, but have worked through with many many hours of talking and reflecting and finally having it click in and finally enjoying it! I have the most supportive family a girl could ever ask for and we are so very fortunate to have such a large family to share our joys with. Many people think of divorced families as disfunctional, but ours works and works well. I am soooo lucky to have parents whom get along and we are able to have family functions as a large group. I always say the more the merrier. I love to be surrounded by loved ones. Anyhow, back to my original topic which is friendships. I am truly lucky to have had many different people come into my life over the years and to share friendships with. What I have been thinking about lately is how to hold on to some friendships when they seem to be slipping away. The thought of that makes me so sad. I think of friendships as a two way street both of which effort has to be made in order to keep that friendship strong. It is just so tough to keep that communication strong when there are never enough hours in the day. I would like to be able to communicate better with many of my friends on a daily/weekly/monthly basis, but that isn't always the case and that is one of the things that saddens me. So how do you maintain or regain those friendships when they seem to slip away? I also struggle with one sided friendships. When only one person seems to make an effort then what do you do? Do you continue to make those efforts in the hope that on the other end the person is appreciative, but lacks the time to reciprocate? As you can see I feel like I'm in a dillema. Also I can't spell for crap today sorry! My other thought/question is do cliques ever go away. I think back to high school and that was clique central. You had to be in the "right" clique or else you were in trouble, but as I got older I saw less and less and as I look around my school I see them once again. Why as adults can't everyone just be friends and not have to seperate into small groups? I hope that anyone who reads this isn't thinking to themself, "Is this targeted at me?" This is not target at ANYONE, I love all my girlies out there. I have just had many thoughts about friendships lately and I guess I wanted to get them out and ask for advice from all my bloggy readers too. Life can be tough, it can knock you down, but if you have people that care it makes all the difference in the world. I am lucky to have that, I just want to know how to maintain and not lose it???